Tuesday, September 25, 2012


Until further notice, I will only be posting on my family blog.   I am hoping that this change is only temporary!  Thank you for always being so faithful...

Thursday, August 16, 2012

you never know

A few of my friends came over to my house last night.  I wish I could say that it was just a friendly visit.  The truth is, they were here to support me through a very difficult time.  Although it is NEVER appropriate to share all of my personal information with my online readers, I will just ask you to pray for my family.

And I will leave it at that.

My parent's live across the street and have a pool in their back yard.  That is where we sat for a few hours talking to one another.  Under different circumstances, it would have been such a beautiful night.  (Despite the mosquitoes!)  Anyway, when they stood to leave, we made sure we pushed all of the pool furniture up against the house.  This is what prompted my dear friend to make the following statement.

'We just really want to make sure these chairs don't blow into the pool.  I know they are not calling for rain, but you just never know when a storm might roll in."

And I began to cry.

How painfully true that is.  We, as Christians, have no way of knowing when the wind around us is going to pick up speed and turn our hearts and our world completely upside down.  Take it from me.... find the Anchor and secure yourself  against Him.

Otherwise, you are likely to drown.

Monday, August 13, 2012

soon to be back to normal

I go back to work this week.  While I am sad, it's going to be a positive thing in the long run.  Not only have I not written ANYTHING all summer like I had planned, JP and I have been so lazy.  And it's not good. 

  • I really do have lots to write about.  My family is stuck between two churches right now and I need to get those thoughts/feelings off of my chest and onto paper. 
  • Although it's sad, God has used the trials of others over the summer to remind me of the blessings in my life.  I'd like to devote a blog post to that as well.
  • Ialso think it will be fun to do a "Question/Answer" post. 

These are only a FEW of the ideas I've had over the past few weeks.  Once school begins for JP, (a week from Wednesday), I'll be back to writing every day.

And I am REALLY looking forward to it!  Thanks for hanging in there with me.

Sunday, August 5, 2012

I need a routine

If nothing else, I have learned a few things about myself this summer.  One of the biggest things I found out is that I NEED ROUTINE AND STRUCTURE!  And it's funny because I've always thought of myself as someone who didn't need it.

But I definitely do.

You see, during the school year I work all day, come home, make dinner and do homework with my son.  Afterwards, I watch a little television with my husband while JP showers or takes a bath.  We read a book and they both go to sleep around eight o'clock (my husband gets up super early for work).  Once both my boys are down for the night, I sit at the computer and write, write, write.  I go to sleep and begin all over again the following day.  It works.  I feel productive.

However, the only word I can use to describe myself during the summer is L.A.Z.Y.  I am a total mess!  We stay up late at night and sleep in late every morning.  I have not written the first word of a devotion ( to be published anyway, I have a couple saved on my computer) AND I have done absolutely NOTHING to either of my manuscripts.  Awful, I know.  I thought it would be nice to offer an explanation as to why this blog has been so pitiful.

Oh well, I guess that's how life goes, right?!  I made all sorts of plans for myself and set several writing goals.  Yet here I sit having done NOTHING.  But you know what?  I do not feel the least bit guilty about that.  Mainly because I have done the following:

  • Snuggled in the bed every morning with my son
  • Watched Disney movies and Nickelodeon
  • I've gone swimming almost every day with my son
  • I've gone out on several "date nights" with my husband
  • We've hiked/picnicked and gone to free movies
  • I've gone to the lake with friends more than once
  • I took my son to the beach for a week.
And the list goes on.  Thank God.  So while I have been less than productive as far a my writing career goes, if you were to ask my son, he would say that our summer has been a TOTAL success!

And in the end, that is all that matters.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

praying for those in colorado

I shared a post on my family blog about the shooting in Colorado.  Please visit here to read the post.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

home sweet home

JP and I arrived back in town last night.  We had a wonderful trip...I have lots to share.  Please hop on over to my family blog to view pictures of our time in Charleston.

As I said, I have a lot to share.  We went to church this morning with my mother.  The service was interesting, to say the least.  I have a behavior class I have to attend in the morning that lasts all day.  I will update with another post tomorrow evening. 

Please check back in with me!

Sunday, July 15, 2012

beach bound

I am off to the beach tomorrow.  My son and I will be back on Saturday.  Not that this blog will be affected by my absence.  I have not been writing at all! 

Again, I'm sorry about that.

Actually, I'm kinda not.  I have enjoyed taking a break from my writing.  Don't get me wrong, I LOVE putting the pen to paper, (or fingers to the keyboard in this case), but just like my day job it has been a breath of fresh air NOT to stare at a computer all night long.

Alrighty, friends!  I hope you all have a wonderful week!  Feel free to follow my family blog for possible updates while we're gone.

Thursday, July 5, 2012


Well, for those of you who have not given up on me I say thank you!  Our summer so far has been so much fun.  And very busy!  To be honest with you, I have put my writing away for a few weeks.  JP and I have been on the go.  And we have been having a BLAST!

God continues to give me devotional ideas and I have them stored on my computer.  I just have not sat down to write them out.  I will get around to it.  For now, however, I am focusing on my family and enjoying my time off work.  Once I print these last few devotions and put them in my folder, I believe I will have the 40 pieces needed for my manuscript.  All I will have left to do is add a few scripture references and a prayer to a few of them. 

I am planning to attend a conference at Furman at the end of this month.  I will carry what I have of my manuscript with me and hopefully meet an agent or publisher that will allow me to share my work. 

I am truly sorry for the lack of blogging.  I hope that you continue to keep up with our family on my other site.  We are heading out in the morning for Tennessee for the weekend.  I will do my best to finish my writing so that I have something to post next week.

Until then...

Monday, June 25, 2012

oh how he loves us

During Vacation Bible School a young child walked up to a sweet servant of a lady who was leading a craft activity.  "My mommy loves me so much,"  he said.  "Well, that's just wonderful.  And how do you know that?"  she asked, looking forward to his answer.  He simply said, "Because she tells me all the time."   This is actually a true story.  I spoke with this teacher yesterday in the grocery store.  She was moved to tears as she re-lived that precious moment. 

I am so thankful we have a Father who tells us "all the time" how much He loves us in His word.

 "See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are.  The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him."  1 John 3:1

One of my ALL TIME favorite praise songs is How He Loves Us by David Crowder Band.  I strongly encourage you to listen to the words if you have not heard them.  The lyrics are powerful and moving.  I cry every time I hear it. 

"....and we are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If His grace is an ocean we're all sinking

And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way....

He loves us!"

What a beautiful picture. 

Thank  you, Father, for your unconditional love!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

crunchy taco shells

A few nights ago I enjoyed a much needed girl's night out!  In my absence, my husband made tacos for dinner.  He did well.  His only complaint was when he opened the box of taco shells, he found that most of them were broken.  Or at least cracked.  Later that evening, I told him that I was sorry the shells were not in one piece.  " It's okay," he said.  "It's not like you can tell from looking at the box."   

This is true.

And isn't this also true with people?  I cannot always tell by looking at someone what is going on with them on the inside.  I am a firm believer that God intended for us to have relationships with others.  One of my churches many motto's is, "Don't do life alone!"   I love that.  I cannot imagine what I would do without the love and support of my family and friends.  In this day in time, I can see how it can be difficult to make REAL friends.  With that in mind, allow me to offer some practical suggestions...

  • Get involved in a church:  I do not have the time, (nor the space), to list all of the reasons God intended for us to BELONG to a local church.  One of them, however, is so that we do not have to do life alone.  It is the perfect place to meet people and build relationships.
  • Find a hobby:  Get off the couch and find something you like to do!  Whether it's a sport, or a craft, figure out where your talent lies, (because you ARE talented), and tune in to that.  And then, your next step is to find others in your community who share your same interest.
  • Start a blog:  Before you snicker at this one, just hear me out!  I began my family blog five years ago when my husband and I were struggling through our adoption process.  At first, it was a nice past time.  A journal of sorts.  Then, one by one, I began meeting people through cyber-space who were traveling through identical trials.  To this day, I keep in touch with many of these families.  I have met several of them in person.  Because of our journeys, we will always share a common bond with one another.   And trust me, you do NOT have to be a gifted writer to begin a blog!  You will however find yourself blessed with the gift of lasting friendship. 
  • Get on Facebook:  I know, I know!  This one sounds pretty silly.  You do not have to look very far to find articles on how, as a society, we are too technologically dependant.  There is a small part of me that would agree with that statement, but a larger part of me strongly disagrees.  Like anything else, when in moderation, I am a strong believer in technological relations.  It is the same concept of the blog.  I have connected and reconnected with SO MANY people through Facebook.  It has served as a wonderful tool and outlet for me to express myself.  And gain friendship and support while doing so. 

These are just a few ideas that have helped me stay connected to those around me.  It just so happens that I have an outgoing personality.  Making friends has never really been a challenge for me.  Having said that, I know that for some, this can be very difficult.  In that case, take a deep breath.  Ask God to calm your spirit and guide you.  It is SO important that you step out of your box.

Especially if  you are broken on the inside.

Saturday, June 23, 2012

i understand

I was getting my son ready for bed last night.  No matter what I asked him to do, his response was a resounding, "NO!"  I was completely out of energy.  I could have forced him into time out or exercised other forms of discipline.  Honestly, I just didn't feel like it.  It was late and I was tired. 

Instead, I got up and went to sit in the bathroom.  Alone in the quiet.  This reaction was unrecognizable to JP.  It was not long before I heard the little pitter-patter of his feet in the hallway.  "Mommy, are you in here?"  His voice was barely above a whisper.  "Yes son, I am."  I responded equally as quiet.  "Mommy, I am very sorry for not doing what I am supposed to do.  I don't know why I don't listen.  I try, but I end up making bad choices." 

After feeling a little tug from the Holy Spirit, my only response was, "I understand."

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.    And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good.    As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me.    For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.   For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.  For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.    Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it."  Romans 7:15-24

I guess I am more like my five year old than I realize.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

prayers please

What a whirlwind of a day. 

My husband lost his grandmother this morning.  It is appropriate, I suppose, that on Father's Day she was united with her Heavenly Father.

Our family would appreciate your prayer support.  It is always difficult when you lose someone you love...

I wrote a post on my family blog.  You can read it, here.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

life is good

I went to Publix after dinner to return a Blockbuster (Black-busturd, as my son calls it) Express movie.  I drove my husband's truck because I cannot listen to the Ipod in my car.  On the way there I cranked up Zac Brown Band's song, "Toes."   I know, I know!  But, I am a fan.  Their music always seems to whisk me away and drop me on a far away beach somewhere. in my mind.

There is a line at the beginning of the song that says, "Life is good today..."  I began to think about that.  Most of us do not have to walk too far before we stumble across negativity.  And at times I, too, am guilty of this charge.

In addition to my precious son, when I returned home from Guatemala I brought back with me a new found appreciation for my country.  Now, when I am tempted to complain about my surroundings or my circumstances, I try to remind myself of a few things:

  • I have running water.
  • I have a bed to sleep in at night.
  • The roof over my head does not leak. ( I HAVE a roof over my head.)
  • There is PLENTY food in my pantry and refrigerator.
  • I have a car.
  • I have heat/air.

You get the picture.

What do I really have to complain about?  And as children of God, we have even MORE to be thankful for!  This life is certainly not perfect.  But if you sit back and think about it,  Life is Good.  Every day.

I need to drive to Publix more often. 

Sunday, June 10, 2012

good monday morning

If I have learned anything while walking down this path to becoming a (paid) writer, it's that it is a LONG, tiring, and overwhelming process.  It takes MORE than a lot of patience.  While patience may be a virtue, it is not a characteristic that I wear very well.  I tend to want things to happen overnight.  Immediately.  Unfortunately, becoming a published author does not happen that way.

This post is my sad attempt at explaining to you why I have been "slack" in posting my devotions.  There are several reasons. 
  1. God gives me the ideas.  I only put them down on paper for Him.  So, I am on His timetable when it comes to the material.  I have a couple of ideas I feel He's given me, I just haven't been able to sort them out on paper.
  2. In addition to the devotions, I am doing my best to keep my family blog up to date.  The JPBeamer blog is the site that advertisers pay me to write for.  And since I actually bring in a little money there, I have to keep it up to date!
  3. I thought I was finished with the manuscript for my children's book.  However, I was given an idea from another children's author (who has been published MANY times) on a different way to end my story...it was an amazing idea, so now mom and I are having to re-write some of the book.  And, of course, that takes time as well.
  4. While I am writing away, keeping my son entertained on a daily basis (while we're home for the summer) remains my #1 priority! 
I hope it doesn't sound like I'm making excuses.  I'm just PLAIN busy!  And every day I learn just how HUMAN I am.  I fail.  I screw up.  I procrastinate. 

I am painfully imperfect. 

I beg you to continue checking in with me on this site.  I will promise to post my devotions when I write them.  In the meantime, feel free to leave a message in the comment section if there are any topics you would like for me to cover, or if you have questions that I can help you with!

Every one have a SUPER Monday!!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012


Now that I am out of school for the summer, I plan on spending each morning cleaning up around the house a little before my son and I head out to do something fun.  This morning, I was sweeping in JP's room when I came across a pile of cotton balls, and colored pom poms taped together in a big ball.  I quickly picked it up and walked towards the trash can to throw it away.  "Noooo!!!  Mommy, what are you doing?!"  His little voice screamed.  "I found this in your floor and I'm throwing it away." I said.

I have to admit, I was caught off guard when his eyes filled up with tears.  I asked him what was wrong.  "Mommy, that's not trash. I made it.  It's beautiful."   Now I won't sit here and tell you that I understand exactly what he made.  What I can tell you is that he was passionate about it. He was proud of it. And he made it VERY clear that it did NOT belong in the trash can! 

Needless to say, I left it alone.

The Holy Spirit used that moment to remind me that just because I do not find the beauty in something doesn't mean it's not beautiful.  And no matter who you are, what you look like or how you feel about yourself, God made YOU.  He's passionate about you. He is proud of you.  You are His creation.

And you're beautiful.


Monday, June 4, 2012

praise God it's summer!

Well, I am finally out of school for the summer!  There are no words to express how excited I am about that.  As I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, I was so busy the last few weeks of school, that I have not written anything at all.

Now that I'm done with my day job, that will change!  I have jotted down a handful of devotional ideas.  I will begin writing them some time today.  So, hang in there with me and thank you for being patient!


Saturday, May 26, 2012

Things are officially in full swing for summer in my world!!  My last day of work for the summer is FRIDAY! 

Devotions will resume the following week!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

i just love a child's mind

This was written by an 8-year-old named Danny Dutton, who lives in Chula Vista, CA. He wrote it for his third grade homework assignment, to 'explain God.' I wonder if any of us could have done as well?
(and he had such an assignment in California, and someone published it, I guess miracles do happen!)


'One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die, so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grownups, just babies. I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way he doesn't have to take up his valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers.'

'God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times beside bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this. Because he hears everything, there must be a terrible lot of noise in his ears, unless he has thought of a way to turn it off.'

'God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting his time by going over your mom and dad's head asking for something they said you couldn't have.'

'Atheists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any in Chula Vista. At least there aren't any who come to our church.'

'Jesus is God's Son. He used to do all the hard work, like walking on water and performing miracles and trying to teach the people who didn't want to learn about God. They finally got tired of him preaching to them and they crucified him. But he was good and kind, like his father, and he told his father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said O.K.'

'His dad (God) appreciated everything that he had done and all his hard work on earth so he told him he didn't have to go out on the road anymore. He could stay in heaven. So he did. And now he helps his dad out by listening to prayers and seeing things which are important for God to take care of and which ones he can take care of himself without having to bother God. Like a secretary, only more important.'

'You can pray anytime you want and they are sure to help you because they got it worked out so one of them is on duty all the time.'

'You should always go to church on Sunday because it makes God happy, and if there's anybody you want to make happy, it's God!

Don't skip church to do something you think will be more fun like going to the beach. This is wrong. And besides the sun doesn't come out at the beach until noon anyway.'

'If you don't believe in God, besides being an atheist, you will be very lonely, because your parents can't go everywhere with you, like to camp, but God can. It is good to know He's around you when you're scared, in the dark or when you can't swim and you get thrown into real deep water by big kids.'

'But. . .you shouldn't just always think of what God can do for you. I figure God put me here and he can take me back anytime he pleases.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Monday, May 21, 2012

exodus 15:2

“The Lord is my strength and my song
    he has become my salvation.
He is my God, and I will praise him,
my father’s God, and I will exalt him."

Sunday, May 20, 2012

pastor's quote

My pastor shared many profound things in our worship service this morning.  However, one thing he said REALLY jumped out at me.

"We, as Christians are not to contain the Gospel, we are to proclaim it!

I want to be that person!  

Thursday, May 17, 2012

in the garden

I come to the garden alone
While the dew is still on the roses
And the voice I hear falling on my ear
The Son of God discloses.

And He walks with me, and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

He speaks, and the sound of His voice,
Is so sweet the birds hush their singing,
And the melody that He gave to me
Within my heart is ringing

I’d stay in the garden with Him
Though the night around me be falling,
But He bids me go; through the voice of woe
His voice to me is calling

Words: Charles Austin Miles (1912)

For Mother's Day, my mom, sister and I went to the movies to see, The Lucky One.   There are several scenes where Zac Efron's character is playing this song on the piano.  It was so beautiful.

The melody has replayed in my head a hundred times since that day.  If you grew up in church, you have heard and probably sang this song.  It is such a soft, quiet song and the lyrics are so peaceful.

I thought I would share...

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

stress relief

 The following two pictures were taken as I was lying on my back on a blanket gazing up into the sky...talk about a stress reliever!

I could not wait to leave work today.  I had it in my mind that I was taking my son to "explore", as he likes to call it,  and take advantage of the beautiful weather.  And we did just that!

It was so relaxing to be in the middle of the woods playing in a creek while listening to the water trickle down over the rocks.  As I laid there on my back with my eyes closed, (while JP was eating his picnic dinner...I promise I didn't close them while he was playing in the water),  I began to thank God for His creation.  It is all around us and yet we take it for granted so often.  Or at least I do. 

It's ironic if you think about it.  As a society we go to such extreme measures to relieve our stress.  We take pills, we go to specialists, we read books, we do yoga, and so on.  I am not saying that there is anything wrong with those practices.  I've done them!  What I am telling you is that I cannot imagine anything working better (for me anyway) than sitting down in the middle of nature, closing your eyes and breathing in God's beauty.  It was very therapeutic. 

So thank you, God, for the opportunity you allowed me this afternoon to appreciate your gifts. 

"He says, 'Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.'"  Psalm 46:10

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

i love this verse

Romans 5:2-5   "Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God.  More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us."

No matter what chapter God is currently writing in your life, this verse should bring you GREAT comfort. 

Sunday, May 13, 2012

you know you're a mom...

  1. If toys or diaper wipes can be found in your purse on any given day.
  2. When you hum or sing cartoon lyrics while you're at work.
  3. Because you have dark circles under BOTH eyes!  (Thank goodness for eye makeup!)
  4. If Friday night means frozen pizza and a G-rated movie.
  5. Because you drag yourself out of bed before the sun rises and do not climb back into bed until everyone you love has fallen asleep.
  6. If your house is not straightened up.  EVER!
  7. When listening to your child's laugh literally warms your heart.
  8. Because you can drive a stick shift, talk on the phone and pick up something that's dropped in the back floor board all at the same time.
  9. Because you sacrifice your own wants/needs to satisfy the wants/needs of someone else.
And last, but not least, you know you're a mom...

    10. Because if given the opportunity, you would do it all again!

Friday, May 11, 2012

happy friday!!!

The end of a school year for teachers can be described as a violent tornado.   It sweeps you up into it's swirling funnel and doesn't spit you out until you walk off campus the final time.  Driving out of the parking lot on that last day is a wonderful feeling.

I cannot wait for this summer to begin!!  I only have 11 FULL days left.  Because things will be so crazy these next couple of weeks at work, I will not be posting my original devotions on the blog.  I will continue to post inspirational thoughts/pictures/quotes and Bible verses, so PLEASE KEEP CHECKING IN!   My mind is just sort of full these days. Once I am done with school, I will have so much more time on my hands and it will be much easier for me to concentrate on my writing.  Also be sure to skip over to my family blog each day.  I will continue to post there as well.

Here are a few of my goals for this summer:
  • Complete the manuscript for my devotional book
  • Help prepare JP for 1st grade by using workbooks/computer software, etc.
  • Spend as much time in the sun and around the pool as possible
  • Find my way back to Dollywood...at LEAST twice
  • Clean my house...really clean my house
  • Do 2 to 3 creative "outings" with JP a week (ie; Jones Gap, Downtown, Paris Mtn. etc)

How does that sound?!  I think it sounds pretty realistic.  Check back in Monday for another inspirational/encouraging post...

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

what if

This is a picture of my cousin's baby girl, Lindi Rose.  She turned 1 year old in March.  My husband, son and I gave her a stuffed animal and a My 1st Princess Bible.  I was so fortunate to capture her reaction to the gift on my camera.

When I was uploading the photos to the computer after the party, this one caught my eye.  And then the Holy Spirit nudged me.

What if every Christian was THIS excited over God's Word.

Definitely something to think about.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

I have had a rough time lately with stress.  I recently posted an article on my family blog about the subject.  Tonight I posted a few thoughts as well as a list of the blessings in my life.

Scoot on over to my Family Blog  to read the post.  I've said it before and I'll say it again... writing down your thoughts on paper is a powerful thing.  Especially when you are listing your blessings.

I love you all and appreciate those of you who read and support my ramblings on this site! 

I am off to bed...

Monday, May 7, 2012

“Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears.”  Barbara Johnson

I ran across this quote by Barbara Johnson today. I LOVE her books! Although she has gone home to be with her Lord, her humor continues to deliver joy to those of us who read her work.  Below are a few of my favorite books by Johnson. 

 This is an awesome tool that will help the every day Christian find their joy in a corrupt world.

 Obviously, this one is for WOMEN only!  Ha!  I don't know what to say about it except that EVERY woman needs to read it! 

I saved this one for last because it is my ALL TIME favorite!  Boomerang Joy is a book of devotionals.  I have probably read this one 10 times or more.  My copy is in such a delicate state...it is literally falling apart.  This book served as an anchor to me when I felt I was drowning in a sea of negative circumstances in my workplace.  I'm not even sure it's in print anymore.  It would be well worth your time to check it out!

i want to give you my heart

I talk so much about my five year old son, JP.  God has used him to teach me so much about Himself, and His unconditional love for me.  It is only natural that most of my writing material would come from his little life.

This morning, we were getting ready for church.  We attend an 11:15 service, so we rarely have to rush on Sunday morning, which is SO nice!  I was sitting on the couch watching television and eating a cinnamon bun when JP entered the room.  He crawled onto my lap and asked me to hold out my hand.  (Given his obsession with bugs, this made me a little nervous!)  I closed my eyes and unfolded my hand before him.  "Okay, mommy!  You can open your eyes now!"  JP anxiously exclaimed.  In the middle of my palm was a very tiny red heart.  "What is this, JP?"  I knew what it was, I just didn't understand why he was handing it to me. 

I melted in the wake of his declaration.  "Mommy, I wanted you to have my heart." 

I can only imagine how much sweeter these words sound when they fall onto the ears of our Heavenly Father...

Have you given Him your heart? 

Friday, May 4, 2012

back on monday

Hey there!!!

WOW.  This has been a difficult week for me.  I work in a very challenging environment.  To say I am grateful for the weekend would be quite an understatement!   I have literally come home every afternoon with one eye closed.  It is wearing me out physically and mentally.  I say that to tell you that I have not been able to write my devotions this week.  I promise to post a new one for Monday.

I hope that everyone is doing well.  I plan on resting as much as possible in an attempt to be refreshed for Monday.  At least I only have FIFTEEN more full days of school left before I am D.O.N.E for the summer!!

Praise Jesus.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

one of my favorite excerpts fom max lucado

“When my daughter was a toddler, I used to take her to a park not far from our apartment. One day as she was playing in a sandbox, an ice-cream salesman approached us. I purchased her a treat, and when I turned to give it to her, I saw her mouth was full of sand. Where I had intended to put a delicacy, she had put dirt.

Did I love her with dirt in her mouth? Absolutely. Was she any less of my daughter with dirt in her mouth? Of course not. Was I going to allow her to keep the dirt in her mouth? No way. I loved her right where she was, but I refused to leave her there. I carried her over to the water fountain and washed out her mouth. Why? Because I love her.

God does the same for us. He holds us over the fountain. "Spit out the dirt, honey," our Father urges. "I've got something better for you." And so he cleanses us of filth; immorality, dishonesty, prejudice, bitterness, greed. We don't enjoy the cleansing; sometimes we even opt for the dirt over the ice cream. "I can eat dirt if I want to!" we pout and proclaim. Which is true—we can. But if we do, the loss is ours. God has a better offer.”      Max Lucado, Just Like Jesus

I love this piece!  If you have not read the book, Just Like Jesus,   you are truly missing out on a blessing.  I know I have had God sweep me up into His loving arms before and scoop the dirt out of my mouth.  Not always a pleasant thing.

But ALWAYS necessary in order for me to experience something sweeter!

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

good behavior

My son and I went to the grocery store this afternoon.  I have to admit, there was a time when I HATED having to carry him with me to the store.  Come on, moms!  You know what I'm talking about.  However, now that he's five years old, he is more of a help to me than anything.  He thinks that it's a big deal to help me put things in the buggy, and get things off the shelf.

While we were standing in line waiting for our turn to check out, I heard JP say, "thank you."  I turned quickly to look at him, because I could not imagine who he was speaking to.  A lady smiled at me and complimented his behavior.  She had given him a quarter to use in the machines by the door.  JP's face was still glowing when I asked him about his unexpected treasure!  He was so proud. 

After I paid for the groceries I walked him over to the little machine for him to claim his prize.  I took this time to talk to him about what took place.  I made sure he understood why he was given the quarter.  I reminded him of how important it is to be on our BEST behavior at all times.  We may not realize that we are being watched.  I also shared with him how God works that way at times.  He rewards our good behavior in His own way.  And often times when we least expect it.

As Christians, we can apply this same principle in our every day lives.  As God's children, we should be on our BEST behavior at all times!

Because Someone is always watching.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Hey guys!!

While blog scrolling, I ran across a beautiful post.  I thought that I would share it with you.


I hope it speaks to you that way it did to me.  It's always nice to be reminded of the different ways God speaks to His children.

Monday, April 30, 2012

you are a cargiver

"Don't do it!  Don't wake up!  Please stay closed..."   Does this sound familiar?  If you've ever been awarded the job of caregiver, you have possibly whispered these words to the back of your eye lids before waking up each morning.  It's not really because you don't want to wake up.  It is because you know that once your feet hit the floor, you are on GO!  And with very little time to breathe.

You are a caregiver.  Most days you love your job.  Besides, what better way to fill the hours in your day than to care for someone you love.  There are many different types of circumstances that shift you into the role.


  •  there was a car accident and a friend or family member didn't walk away unharmed.
  •  your spouse or significant other is poisoned with a chronic illness.
  •  you are helping to raise your grandchildren.
  •  the child God blessed you with has special needs.
  •  your loved one made it home from the war...just not in one piece.

Whatever the reason, the outcome is the same.  You are a caregiver.  And you are tired.  Depending on how long you've held the title, you might be frustrated.  Allow me to toss a little encouragement your way.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”  Matthew 11:28

"My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”  Exodus 33:14

“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”  Psalm 73:26

“Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings.”  Psalm 61:1

“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”  Isaiah 40:28-31

I know it's not easy.  I've been where you are.  And the fact that you love the person you are caring for on a daily basis doesn't change the reality that you cannot feel your legs when you FINALLY crawl into bed each night. 

I hate it when people say,  "God will never give you more than you can handle."  Not only is that not true.  It's simply not biblical.  What IS true, however, is that God will not put more on you than HE can handle.  And He can handle anything! 

Remember, if you are a child of God, He is walking with you throughout your day.  And He cares for your loved one more than you do...

So, sit down, close your eyes and take a deep breath.  Now, ask your Father to help you.   I promise you He will!

Friday, April 27, 2012

it's okay to NOT be okay

I was surfing through my family blog tonight in search of a few writing samples to submit, along with an application, to a blogging company.  I ran across several posts that I had forgotten about.

I wanted to share one of those with you.  Allow me to preface the entry...

Most of you know that my husband and I adopted our son from Guatemala.  I also have mentioned before that the months we spent waiting for his arrival were very painful.  Having said that, God used that time to teach me so much about Himself.  So, today I confess to you that I wouldn't trade that dreadful wait for anything in the world.

I have no way of knowing what you are going through at this time in your life.  Maybe you are on your mountain top and everything is going great.  However, if  you are camped out in a valley right now,  this post is designed JUST FOR YOU! 

I may not understand EXACTLY what you're going through, but I remember all too well the emotions that accompanied my stay in the valley.  The walls are very tall and intimidating.  My only advice to you would be to LOOK UP! 

God has not moved.

Click here  to read my account of when God reminded me that, as a Christian,  IT IS OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY!

Thursday, April 26, 2012


I am home sick today.  In addition to catching up on some much needed rest, I am also catching up on my Dr. Phil episodes that I have taped.

I just finished one where Dr. Phil gave a returning guest a second chance to get sober at one of his facilities for people struggling with drug addictions.  At the closing of the show, the guest looked at him with a tear stained face and thanked him for not giving up on her.   Dr. Phil's response is the reason for this devotion.  He stared back at her and said, "Do not be thankful, be worthy of this second chance."  The crowd broke out into a thunderous applause!

What Dr. Phil did for this young girl is very admirable in my book.  His gesture also mirrors what God does with us, as His children.  There is only one HUGE difference.  We are not, nor will we EVER be worthy of the mercy and grace that we receive.

 On a daily basis.

 Our "worthy" entered the world as "... a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."  Luke 2:12.  Because of this, we do not have to "be worthy of our second chance."  Jesus has taken care of that for us!  We only have to accept it.

Now, that is cause for a thunderous applause.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

a lesson from oprah

I used to watch the Oprah show religiously.  Although my views in NO way line up with her philosophy on life, I still enjoyed watching her interviews.  I am using the past tense of my verbs because in the past few years, I have come to my senses and have begun watching Dr. Phil instead.

Even if you have not tuned in to WYFF at 4:00, surely you have heard of Oprah's Favorite Things!  It is a show she does once in a while where she introduces all of her "favorite things."  If you happen to be a guest in the audience on this particular day, you travel home with TONS of goodies.  Oprah gives one of EVERYTHING on her list to every guest in the studio. You can imagine the reactions of her audience! 

It looks a little something like this...  click here

Can you believe that?!  People are crying, passing out, one lady even "peed" on herself!  I have to be honest, I am not sure what it is Oprah gave away on this particular day.  I'll even admit that my interest is peeked.  What I can tell you is that whatever she wrapped up and delivered  does not compare to the Gift of salvation we've been given through Jesus!

"For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."  Romans 6:23

If Oprah's fans can go BONKERS over the prizes she gives away, surely we as Christians, can show a little excitement over our Savior!  At some point in our lives, we've all been a guest in God's studio.

What is your reaction to His gift?

Monday, April 23, 2012

identity theft

We definitely live in a paranoid society.  And with good reason!  Every time you turn around, you hear of some one's identity being stolen.

It can ruin our entire existence.  My husband and I try and take extra precautions when it comes to our finances.  We do not put our banking information on the Internet for ANY reason.  We pay with cash rather than cards 99% of the time.  It's so scary.  Just the other day, I heard of fast food employees imprinting credit card numbers and using them after the customer leaves. 

Terrible, huh?! 

Satan does the same kind of thing.  He creeps around just waiting for that person he can sweep into his nasty grip.  He doesn't need an imprint of our credit card to make our lives miserable.  Here is a list of tools that Satan uses to abduct our priorities:

  • Television
  • Computers
  • Shopping malls
  • Pornography
  • Food
  • Movies
  • M.O.N.E.Y

And the list goes on and on and....

As Christians, if we are not careful,  we can lose sight of our purpose here on Earth.  How incredibly easy it is to become so entangled with the world that we forget Who we were created to identify with.  Every now and then I have to do a priority check in my own life.  I would like to encourage you to do the same.

"For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love  he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will..."  Ephesians 1:4-5

It may be difficult to recover financial identity once it's been compromised, but it can be done.  Unfortunately, if Satan swipes our identity card, the consequences can be eternal.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

not the normal devotion post

God has given me three new devotional ideas to write.  I am very excited about them.  Unfortunately, I have had a difficult time putting them down in writing.  I don't know how it is for other writers, but in order for me to be productive, I HAVE  to be alone in a quiet place.  So, as much as I would LOVE to deliver a devotion to you (as promised) today, I just cannot do it.  Things at work have been pretty hectic lately, and mom and I have been working hard to finish our children's book.  Add that to my every day responsibilities at home, and I just do not have the mental capability left over to write the devotions.  Hang with me, though, I promise I will get myself organized and back on track.  Just consider this a "dry spell."

 I will, however, share my thoughts with you tonight.  Sit back, relax...this one's a little longer than you're used to. (Sorry mom, I know you're at work!)

I am not sure what has come over me today.  JP and I went to church this morning.  It was an amazing service, as usual.  We then came home and ate lunch with my mom, sister, and Preston.  We were pretty lazy around the house this afternoon, and tonight we went back over to mom and dad's to eat sub sandwiches for dinner.  All in all it was a good day.  A normal day.

When it came time to get JP ready for bed, every OUNCE of patience that I normally possess, left my body!  EVERYTHING he did drove me absolutely crazy.  Granted, he doesn't listen like I would like for him to, but what five year old boy does?  He wasn't behaving terribly, or doing anything out of the ordinary.  My actions, however, were out of the ordinary.  I was a HOT MESS!  I try not to yell/raise my voice at JP.  That blew up in my face tonight!  I was so fed up with hearing my name and having to repeat myself to him. I completely lost control.

Once I calmed myself down, I went and crawled in the bed with him.  I told him that I was sorry for losing my patience and reminded him that it was wrong of me to yell.  Being the sweet child that he is, he said, "I forgive you, mommy."  And all was well. 

I held him until he fell asleep.  Out of nowhere, an overwhelming weight washed over me and I began to cry.  All of a sudden I was painfully aware of my responsibility to him as his mother.  My job is to prepare him for life.  His spiritual wellness is dependant on me as well.  What kind of a model am I for him?  Thirty minutes before this, I was telling him NOT to say my name again and not to talk to me.  I was yelling at him to brush his teeth and get into bed.  I was frustrated because he was so needy.  I didn't want to be needed.

 Now, I lay beside him thinking of what my little fit must have looked like to him.  And I feel rotten! 

Thankfully, my son has such a forgiving spirit.  I have no doubt that things will be back to normal in the morning.  He will have forgotten the happenings of tonight.  I, on the other hand, need to better control my emotions around JP.  I love him so much.  Once upon a time, I longed to hear him call me "mommy."  I need to remind myself of that.

Well, I guess that's all.  I appreciate you allowing me to vent.  This whole ordeal made me so thankful that Jesus doesn't ever get tired of hearing us call out His name. 

I should strive to be more like Him.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

In addition to a VERY stressful work week, I have had several evening obligations this week. I am pooped! Due to brain-failure, devotions will resume on Sunday. Thank you for your patience!!
* I would appreciate your prayers...my mother and I mailed our query letter to an agent today. We are hoping that we will be given the opportunity to submit our manuscript for our children's book! *

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

conversations with God

We boarded our cocker spaniel last weekend for the very first time. I can sum up our experience with one word. MISTAKE! She must have thought we completely abandoned her because she has since developed colitis! Yes, you heard me correctly. And if you are familiar with this gastrointestinal monster, you can imagine what this has meant for us at home! ACCIDENTS EVERYWHERE! UGH!

One positive thing that did develop through this dreadful ordeal is that I have been a cleaning machine! My floors have never been so clean! I worked all day today mopping floors, washing clothes, cleaning the bathroom and dusting. Sounds awful, huh? Actually it was nice.

I used that time to talk to God.

"Never stop praying" 1 Thessalonians 5:17
As Christians, we sometimes grow up with the misguided notion that we have to sit down, fold our hands and close our eyes in order to talk to God. Fortunately, that is not true. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with that way. It's just not mandatory!
If it were, I might have missed out on a really wonderful conversation today, while cleaning my house!

Sunday, April 15, 2012


My five year old son has had a HORRIBLE mouth lately! I have heard him tell me "NO!" more times this weekend than I have in the past year. And I do not mind telling you, it drives me insane! It's not like what I ask him to do is difficult. Usually, it has something to do with brushing his teeth, sharing toys with his cousin, or taking his toys from the living room and putting them back in his room where they belong. NOT HARD! Lately, however, everything turns into an issue.

Tonight, when I tucked him into bed I told him that I loved him more than anything in the world, but that I was really disappointed with the way he talked to me and his daddy. Of course his response quickly reminded me of why I'm so in love with him. He rolled over, smiled and said, "Mommy, I promise I'll try harder tomorrow." How sweet. Needless to say, all was forgiven and I held on to him a little bit longer until he peacefully drifted off to sleep.

" Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."
Ephesians 4:29
When I tuck myself in to bed tonight, I should probably whisper the same thing to God. Father, I promise I'll try harder tomorrow!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

your gifts

I went to my nephew's third birthday party the other week. It was a lot of fun. You can imagine the WILD energy in a room full of small children! After everyone enjoyed cake and ice cream, Coleman came to the middle of the room to open his presents. All eyes were anxiously awaiting the reveal of each gift! After he had torn through the last one, he was OFF to resume playing with his friends. It was over so quickly. So typical of a three year old boy!
And there, left in a big pile in the middle of the room, were all of his gifts.
On our Heavenly re-birth day, God gives all of us one or more spiritual gifts. "There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit distributes them." 1 Corinthians 12:4
Our gifts are not meant to be left in a pile in the middle of a room. God intended us to utilize our talents and abilities to further His Kingdom! In doing so, we are promised a more fulfilling "party!"

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

a little inspiration for today

easter sunday

Today is Easter Sunday and I am in Gatlinburg, Tennessee with my husband and son. While we missed taking part in our church services this morning, we've really enjoyed one another during our much needed mini-vacation!
There is a church on almost every corner here. Just about every church sign reads, "Please join us on Easter Sunday for our early morning sunrise service." When I read this particular invitation, several images flood my mind.
  • A beautiful sunrise
  • Flowers in bloom on a spring morning
  • Sweet little children dressed up in their brand new Easter outfits
  • Easter egg hunts

What sweet Easter images...just not the most important ones!

"There was a violent earthquake, for an angel of the Lord came down from heaven and, going to the tomb, rolled back the stone and sat on it. His appearance was like lightning, and his clothes were white as snow. The guards were so afraid of him that they shook and became like dead men. The angel said to the women, 'Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.'" Matthew 28:2-7

What a bitter sweet picture. As a Christian, it is painful to think about what took place on that hill. However, what took place three days later takes my breath away. And saved my life! The next time you attend an Easter sunrise service, whisper a prayer of thanksgiving for your beautiful gift of salvation!

And praise God because His SON did rise!

Sunday, April 1, 2012


Hello all!!

My family is on Spring Break this week! I will not be posting devotions again until next Tuesday when we return to our weekly routine. We will be leaving for Tennessee towards the end of the week.

In the meantime, you can follow us on our family blog! HERE.


Wednesday, March 28, 2012

inspirational thought for the day...

“When you are in the final days of your life, what will you want? Will you hug that college degree in the walnut frame? Will you ask to be carried to the garage so you can sit in your car? Will you find comfort in rereading your financial statement? Of course not. What will matter then will be people. If relationships will matter most then, shouldn't they matter most now?” - Max Lucado

Tuesday, March 27, 2012


"Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to
Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:18

I have been really emotional lately and praising Jesus for the blessings in my life. I have so
many. It is so easy for me to forget how much good God has allowed in my life. I was at my girlfriend's cabin the other weekend for a girl's night. On the way home I was talking with one of the girls about money. We were complaining about how we never seem to have enough. She said that a few weeks ago she told her husband that she was "so tired of being poor!" His response to her made the hairs stand up on my arm. He said, "Honey, don't say that. We are not poor! We just do not have any money." WOW! She has no idea what an impression that made on me.

God used his comment to put things in perspective for me. Yes, gas prices have sky-rocketed. No, we do not eat out anymore. No, we do not live in a fancy home or drive fancy cars. But we DO have jobs. We DO live in a home and have a roof over our heads. We DO have a comfortable bed to sleep in at night. We do have a beautiful son. We DO have wonderful family and friends. We do have food in our cabinets and refrigerator. We are healthy.

Most importantly, we are loved and cherished by the CREATOR of the Universe! I challenge you to stop what you're doing right now, no matter where you are and whisper a thank you to God for all of your riches in Christ Jesus...

It is because of Him that we are not poor!

i love to hear him sing

Every time I get into the car with my son, I hear the same question. "Mommy, can you turn on my song?" He loves the song, "Stronger" by Mandesa. The boy has excellent taste! Of course, I turn on the Ipod and crank up the volume. If you are a parent, I do not have to tell you what it does to my heart to listen to JP sing, at the top of his lungs, in the back seat of my car.

"Sing to the LORD a new song; sing to the LORD, all the earth. Sing to the LORD, praise his name; proclaim his salvation day after day." Psalm 96:1-2
I cannot remember the last time I sang to God in my car. Or anywhere else, for that matter. Our praise is music to His ears. If listening to JP sing brings my heart that much joy, imagine what our song does to the heart of God! Next time you're in your car, turn up your radio and use your commute as a time to worship.
Your Father loves to hear you sing!

Sunday, March 25, 2012

a crown

Scott was in a golf tournament Sunday, so JP and I went to church without him. Rather than cook for just the two of us, I ran through the Burger King drive thru to get him a kid's meal. He has been asking for one for a while now, but I rarely go to Burger King.

The kid's meal comes with a small travel game and on the outside of the box is several activities. As if that's not enough fun (ha!), the lid turns into a crown for you to wear on your head. This may not increase your heart rate, but my son was about to bust! He immediately asked me to fit the crown to his head. In addition to his new accessory, he wore the biggest, brightest smile all the way home. It was priceless!

"On his robe at his thigh was written this title: King of all kings and Lord of all lords" Revelation 19:16
Once upon a time, God gave us His Crown wrapped in the earthly package of a baby boy. He taught us, loved us, died for us, and one day, He's coming back for us! Now, that's priceless! When was the last time we really got excited about this truth?

If this Crown doesn't increase your heart rate, you may want to check your pulse!

Saturday, March 24, 2012


I beg you to be patient with me! Lately when I sit down to write devotions, my mind goes completely blank! UGH! I am so frustrated...

Again, there are several pieces that I am working on, but they are not coming together quickly. Usually, that means God has something different he wants me to write about. So, I am waiting on him! Not the first time! And I'm sure it won't be the last.

While we are waiting on God to reveal something profound, I'll tell you about a book that I bought this weekend that I am super excited about! Maybe you've seen it. It's called, "The Story." Basically, it is the Bible in story book form! Max Lucado wrote it. Anytime I see Lucado's name attached to something, I pick it up. I have not read it yet, but I intend to begin tomorrow. I will be sure and let you know what I think of it.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

a folded cloth

I had always heard that in Jesus' tomb the soldiers found a "neatly folded" cloth. I never knew the actual meaning of that until a few years ago.


I just thought I would share...

Monday, March 19, 2012

fruit of the.....what??

When it's hot outside, I LOVE to eat fruit. Actually, I love to eat fruit ANYTIME! At any given time you are likely to find strawberries, bananas, blueberries or apples in my kitchen. My mouth waters just thinking about them!

Unfortunately, these are not the only types of fruit you'll find in my home. Below is a list of a few I have been known to carry around in my basket:

  • Anger
  • Bitterness
  • Pride
  • Slothfulness
  • Gluttony
  • Dishonesty

I don't know about you, but when I load up my basket with these fleshly fruits, it definitely weighs me down. I should not be surprised. God has given us a list of His preferred fruit in His word.

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness..." Galatians 5:22

In order for me to be spiritually healthy, I must replace what's in my basket with the fruit God intended for me to tote around! It's MUCH lighter!

What's in your basket?

Sunday, March 18, 2012


"...'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this
When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me, this is gonna make you stronger!"
("Stronger", by Mandisa)
This is one of my FAVORITE songs!!! And I'll tell you there is NOTHING IN THE WORLD sweeter than driving down the road and your five year old son singing every word from the back seat!!! Thank you, Lord, for giving me this child!

Here's the deal. I am NOT IN CONTROL of when God gives me a devotion to write. There are days when He shows me two, sometimes three, and then there are times when I have NOTHING! Today is one of those days. My juices are not flowing. So, I thought that on days like today when I do not have anything that I have written personally, I will share something that I have found from somewhere else. Maybe it's something that has spoken to me, or something that I read in a book.

How does that sound?

There are a few of you (hey mom!) who come here on a daily basis hoping to find your inspirational story for the day. So, I will do my best to deliver...it just may not be from my pen!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

breathing treatment

"...but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up
with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not
faint." Isaiah 40:31
My little one year old nephew has been sick for a few days. Thankfully he seems to finally be on the mend, but he has to be given a breathing treatment every four hours. Tonight, I went over to show my sister and family how to administer the treatment. I have to say, it is not pretty! It's a very simple process, but it was difficult to hold him still AND keep him happy while the mask was attached to his face. Not fun! And who could blame him? He is being held against his will in a position that he is not at all fond of for what seems, to him, like an eternity. I hated to do it, but I knew that it was in his best interest.
There have been times in my life when God has had to hold me still, against my will. My most recent experience was when I was waiting to bring JP home from Guatemala. There were days when I felt like I was suffocating under the mask of stress. I didn't understand why in the world God didn't allow me to be with my baby. I was kicking and screaming beneath His grip. I tried my best to squirm out from under Him, but it just wasn't time to move on.
Does this describe you? Is God holding you at a place in your life that is not comfortable? I feel your pain. The mask is blocking your view, and you are tired. It helps if you just close your eyes and relax in His arms. It may seem like you've been in that position for an eternity, but try and remember that if He has you there, it is in your best interest!
Lord, help me to be patient and rest while You're holding me!

Monday, March 12, 2012

the script

I promised that I would post a new devotion today. I have been sitting here staring at the blinking cursor for almost an hour. I have several that I have been working on for a week now. When I sit down to complete them, however, my mind goes blank. It is very frustrating, however, I know what the problem is.

I am the one trying to write them! By now, I should know better. I STINK as a writer! That probably sounds funny seeing as that's how I am trying to earn my living. But, it's true. It never fails, every time I sit down to write something, it doesn't flow and most of the time it's just not good. It's not until I clear out my heart and mind, and pray for God to use me as His vessel that a piece is worth reading. And I know that, so you would think I would stop trying!

We do that, as Christians, don't we? We attempt to write the story of our lives. And it's not our book! Each day I am learning more and more just how weak I am. When am I going to learn that I will NOT be productive until I sit back and allow the Author to take charge of the manuscript! It has taken me a VERY LONG and boring hour to finally realize what God is asking me to do.

"... for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9
I need to remove my fingers from the keys.

Thursday, March 8, 2012


The strep bug has left the body of my five year old. He has been doing well for over a week now. Thank You, God!!! HOWEVER, it has entered my body! BOO!

My plan this weekend is to rest, rest and then rest more! I am thankful that we have a four day weekend. THERE WILL BE NO NEW DEVOTIONS TO READ UNTIL TUESDAY!

I will accept and appreciate your prayers! I'm miserable!

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

enough is enough!

In 1 Kings chapter 19, Elijah is running for his life. Because of him, false prophets in Israel were being killed. Jezebel had a lot invested in the false prophets, so in this chapter, she is out to kill Elijah. He was afraid. He was tired. He had, had ENOUGH!

"...while he himself went a day's journey into the desert. He came to a broom tree, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. 'I have had enough, Lord' He then fell asleep." (v.4-5)

Elijah was God's man. In this book, he did some MAJOR stuff for God. However, now he is tired, lonely and feeling very sorry for himself. In the following verses, the Lord speaks to Elijah and tells him to go and stand on top of the mountain in His Presence. A strong wind came. An earthquake came. A fire came down. Where was God? After the fire was gone, Elijah heard a soft whisper. It was God! He was in the whisper.

Are you tired? Frustrated? Beat down by your circumstances? I, personally, am at a point in my life where I am ready to scream, "I have had enough!" Maybe that's you too.

  • Maybe you're tired of the Cancer.
  • Maybe you're tired of the abuse.
  • Maybe you're tired of being dependant on a drug.
  • Maybe you're tired of taking care of people and never getting anything in return.
  • Maybe you're tired of your relationship struggles.

The good news is, we do not have to hike to the top of a mountain to be in the Presence of God. We just simply have to look for Him and ask Him to show His face! He will.

"All at once an angel of the Lord touched him and said, 'Get up and eat.' Elijah looked around and there by his head was a cake of bread and a jar of water. He ate and drank and then lay down again. The angel of the Lord came a second time and touched him, 'Get up and drink.' Strengthened by that food, he traveled forty days and forty nights.." (v. 5-8)

God gave Elijah the strength to make his journey. One day at a time. He'll do the same for us! Whatever journey you are on right now, find the top of your mountain and stand in God's Presence. Listen for Him. He may not speak to you in a very loud voice, but He'll speak...

in a whisper!